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Writer's Block: Hobby Lobby [22 Nov 2011|10:52am]
What do you like to collect?

Let's see: Collectible anime figurines from series I like, collectible miniatures (mainly HeroClix right now, but I also did/do stuff from Axis & Allies Miniatures and Star Wars Miniature games), and those collectible card games that interest me. To name a few.
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[04 Jul 2011|02:54pm]
I went down to my parents for my birthday last week. The weird thing about it was that I felt better down there. Yes, celebrating my birthday was fun, and my parents getting me a e-Tablet when I asked for a MP3 player/iPod was a surprise.

Now that I'm back here, the loneliness sets backs in. I know that I have my family members. But they all have friends and other companions in addition to family. All I have is an overactive imagination.

Heck, I don't even know why I'm writing this. I had friends. Most of them were real people who liked spending time with me. But times change, and people pass on or turn into different people. I know I'm changing too. Probably not as much as others, but I still feel the monster within.

A Dream [24 Jun 2011|12:11pm]
Last night's dream was interesting one about me as a woman who was somehow targeted by some dark mystical force. I also had this female friend in the dream who ended up wanting to help me after I tried to explain what was happening and that it was dangerous to get involved.

I miss having friends in real life.
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Japan Crisis [14 Mar 2011|01:54pm]
I'm going to post something un-locked, because while part of it has already been said, part of it hasn't.

You can text REDCROSS to 90999 to donate $10.00 to the American Red Cross. If you are in Canada and reading this (I have Canadian readers?), you can text ASIA to 30333 to donate to the Canadian Red Cross.

Why is this important? Japan does not do blood donations as much as us North Americans due to cultural reasons. I believe that it's because blood in Japan has been seen as "unclean". I've also heard something about people seeing their body as less than whole if something in their body is replaced (or something like that). Anyway, I've heard that the Red Cross is one of the few that operate in Japan that does blood donations.

Anyway, I feel sorry for them. Maybe it's because the entire nation where at least one of my hobbies originates from is in crisis. Maybe it's my sensitivity. (I'm guessing that it's likely both.)
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B.A.R. [29 Jul 2009|11:43am]
So, it's Blog Against Racism week. And, like a well-meaning memesheep, I thought I could post some thoughts on it.

A bit on mixed race; and Fighting My Own Racist Thoughts On SpanishCollapse )
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I'm Not Dead, But I'm Not Quite The Same [03 Jun 2009|08:59pm]
Wow. I really haven't posted in a long, long, time.

gwyd messaged me to see if I am okay. The truth? Kind of not.

After being in the hospital from a hit-and-run accident in February and not being able to even reach my family was emotionally worse than the actual injuries. All that emotional trauma was so bad that I could barely speak for a couple weeks after. Not to mention that my misanthropy level rose (being hit by a car who takes off, going to to the ER, not being able to contact anybody I knew, and dealing with the bill is horrible).

I've been so alone that I've been going to the game room; but with the occasional rude and homophobic comments I hear, I am seriously thinking of stopping that. I've thought of stopping before, but then I think. Those Friday nights are close to my only face-to-face social interaction (I also do Voice chat on Mondays with another group), and if I stop that I have no idea what people will think. Plus, comments aside, I do kind of enjoy playing.

Honestly, I keep coming close to just becoming a shut-in. I just feel that I'm losing my ability to connect to people. I've lost several people over the past year, and I wonder why I put energy into relationships in the first place if people are going to rip away from me. I'm also caring a whole lot less about the outside world and humanity. I've started playing board, miniature, and video games against myself.

Oh, and another reason for a lack of updates was that my computer died. I'm on a tiny laptop now.
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[20 Aug 2008|11:00pm]
Everybody's leaving me now.
I'm so out of touch with everyone.

And I was also dumped by my girlfriend.


Paradox? [12 Aug 2005|10:49am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

I had a brief anti-technology stint yesterday. My computer was haywire; the profile settings got messed up, and my computer kept thinking it was December 2002. The AV plugs in the front of my TV were damaged somehow. Finally, I went to change the fuses to fix the power situation and didn't really know how. I ended up shocking myself twice before giving up. There was a point where my music players didn't work. I think somebody did fix the problem, because the lights and power came back on that evening, and everything somehow repaired itself.

In other news (or perhaps related), I don't feel as spiritually dead anymore. I'm not sure why. I had a big spiel on it, but I'll save that. Sufficed to say, I feel less like a zombie and feel more like an alien.

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Memeling [11 Aug 2005|01:40pm]
    Ever woken up one day and felt like you didn't even
know who you were? who your family was? What
you were even DOING here? Chances are your soul
is a reassigned Walk-In , a replacement soul
for when the first one became too dissilusioned
and exhausted of its Earthly life, and
requested to pull out of the mission. As a
result of this you feel inexplicably lost at
times, with a vast amount of questions no-one
can answer, not even you. The main reason why
Walk-Ins take on the role of a human being is
because the previous soul was miserable in its
situation, possibly attempting suicide to
escape it. Instead of wasting a perfectly good
body, you approched that soul and exchanged
places, them going back to their spiritual home
while you continue their work here on Earth.
Rest assured only the most prestigious and
self-assured souls with great experience of
Earth and its many trials and tribulations take
on this role, so while you may feel confused
about how you ended up here, always keep in
mind your wonderful sense of drive and inner
strength, and that all you aspire to be will
become a reality. You've come this far, and
with your immense power you can only go even

Which Earth Angel Are You?
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Powerless [10 Aug 2005|09:42pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

I returned to my apartment a moment ago to find limited power to it. All of the lights and half of the outlets have no power. I have my computer and refrigerator (also known as "Life Support"), and 2 working power outlets. I have no lights or game systems. I don't even have a working flashlight. I'm guessing a fuze blew somewhere, but I don't know wich one; plus, it's too dark to work on that problem now. Tomorrow morning I get a fuze and start working.

Once more, I find proof that my life not only sucks, but it's a frickin' black hole.

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Homophobia Awareness [10 Aug 2005|12:33pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

While I was away, the Aiya portion of my LJ had a lot of things to bring light to this problem. So, for the other people, here are some posts...

• Letter from Vermont
• Leaving the Classroom
• "I am..."

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Movies and Anime [31 Jul 2005|08:04pm]
[ mood | hot ]

I scrounged up enough money to go see War of the Worlds. It was interesting; while it was nice that they showed things from a civilian perspective (complete with paranoia and backstabbing that goes on in a crisis), I think that since they altered it a bit they could have made the aliens use biological protection.

I also watched the first two episodes of the anime Koi Koi 7. All I have to say is the show is extremely perverted, but reminds me of Kujibiki Unbalance in that it's random.

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Icons/Avatars, and The Monster Nausizz [30 Jul 2005|11:22pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

(Don't ask me why they're called "avatars". It's probably the same group that call those tests "memes".)
Anyway, here are some I made due to boredom...

C L I P Collapse )

Oh, and just to throw in an in-joke, here's a screen shot from an SNK game called Crossed Swords.
Big ShotCollapse )

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Thoughts [28 Jul 2005|12:30pm]
There are some thoughts I really want to get out.

The Black Drop
The Black Drop is a friendly and warm place. The people are nice, the apmosphere is home-like and very relaxed. However, the past few drinks I have ordered there have simply been awful.

Harry Potter and the Speed Readers
I know the Harry Potter is written at a low reading level. That doesn't make people breezing through the book any easier. It hurt my fandom; I still like it, but I feel like I'm not as good a fan. Which is better than how I used to be feeling: that I wasn't a true fan because I didn't buy the book the day it came out and devour it within twenty-four hours.

Movie Count: Zero
I have realized that I have not seen a single movie this summer. The last thing I saw was Episode III when it first came out. And now half of the movies I've wanted to see are out of the theatres now. I suck. I see far too few movies, both classic and current.

[23 Jul 2005|10:58pm]
For people curious about me trying the LARP in Cornwall Park went:
They were actually amazed that I showed up in costume, with their own weapon. Apparently few people fo that; they just show up, borrow weapons, and fight. The total plot on my side was as follows: Clan of Evil tried to recruit my character, which I was attacked when refused. Clan Evil tried again, and members of the Clan of Good actually backstabbed me for no apparent reason. I also have the character name Spearman, despite having a psudo-background and character idea. So, having a concept and a semi-elaborate costume was less important than, say, the fact that you use a spear.

Other than that, today keys were found, more bills added to the pile, and I wore myself out.
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Memeling [23 Jul 2005|12:26am]
Interesting... and true...Collapse )
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Self- and Others- Advice: Games [23 Jul 2005|12:05am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

This is for me, as well as for a couple of people I know who might benefit from this right now.

(Body of message clipped July 24)Collapse )

Why am I doing this? Oh, no reason other than finding myself and certain friends in the same situation. I figured by writing this, it would help myself and others.

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News [18 Jul 2005|08:06pm]
1. I am convinced that nobody cares about my problems or triumphs. Thus, until further notice, all whining, ranting, and/or bragging will be bottled up inside me. I know it's not healthy, but my outlets have failed.

2. I am going to be down in the Seaside, OR area on the first week of August. If any of my Oregon friends want to meet me and save me from my family, please let me know so I can break away. (I know it's still a big drive from Eugene to Seaside, but it would mean a lot to me.)

3. There is a fairly good chance that I will not be going down to OryCon this year. Reasons include possible lack of funds and a promise I made to myself regarding room sharing.
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Crisis Averted... [18 Jul 2005|12:29pm]
[ mood | somebody kill me... ]

Okay, I've got everything mostly under control. At least on the surface. I can act somewhat functional again. As my dad used to say, "Don't complain and just shut up."

Everything's fine. We're all fine. We're all all fine here, now, thank you. *

* Note: things are not fine at all. I'm just using that line...

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Mohawk [14 Jul 2005|03:07pm]
[ mood | hot ]

I just got back from getting my hair cut. I now have a curly mohawk. I've been planning to get one for a few weeks now, but managed to go to Studio Galatica to get it. When it was done, all of the people agreed that it looks good on me. I'd have pics, but my digital camera needs more batteries, and I'm tired from the heat.

I also went to all of the places I went to yesterday. No sign of keys anywhere.

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